A Girl's Captured Memories

10 days before Christmas ^^

2011-12-15T10:40:00.000-08:00

Hi, guys... It's very late at night but I just can't sleep early recently :P Well, I'd like to share some videos exactly. Um,,, First, there is an event on my church special for teenagers - in Surabaya specifically. The event is called as 'Studi Teologia Intensif Remaja Surabaya' or shortened as STIRS. Although, it is about theology but hey, it's for TEENAGERS!!! We'll still have fun :D This event will be held on 20-22 December on Kertajaya Indah blok F/628 #promoting Wanna complete information? Here's the video X)

Haha... Quite fun right? Besides, I also want to share two Music Videos of SS501's Kim Hyun Joong *hooray* Though I'm quite a fan of K-Pop, I actually embed those vids here since they has beautiful sand art stories. The stories are matched with the title - 'Marry You' based on the woman's point of view whilst 'Marry Me' based on the man's. I hope all of you would love to see it.

Marry You

Marry Me

CLEAR - Sampo Anti KETOMBE!

2011-12-11T10:22:00.000-08:00

Iklan Shampo CLEAR versi JAWA

IKLAN CLEAR VERSI BAHASA JAWA:

Aku ambeg'an... (I'm breathing)
Aku obah... (I'm moving)
Aku kringetan (I'm sweating)
Wong - wong ndelok kabeh... (everybody look at me)
rambutku... (my hair)
klambiku... (my clothes)
Aku seneng ireng (i love black)
ireng kuwi apik (black is cool)
ireng ora enek Ketombe (black without dandruff)

jenengku... "UDAN" (my name is RAIN)

Bruakkakakakakakaaa... Oh my gosh I almost lol-ing in midnight XDDDDD Well, basically it's CLEAR CF words (with the ASIAN USHER Rain <3) which is translated in Javanese. It's so funny and I wanna share it with you guys, Indonesians especially :D

Hmm, actually I remembered this commercial that stated "Pernahkah Anda sedekat ini?". Literally means "Have you ever been so close (with anyone)?" and there will be man and woman stared at each other passionately WITHOUT dandruff. Hahaha. I dunno why suddenly I remembered this CF thing. I just bumped on one forum and taraaaa... *sound effect* I got to this post C: Okay then,,, See u guys ^^

Link: Forum Detik.com

Dunno the title yet

2011-12-10T10:08:00.000-08:00

*this was created because of my friend's love story #eaaa. I feel unhappy with the person so I talk - eh, write - my opinion. however, this is quite unclear and I even dunno what is the point XD ENJOY*

They grew up together. They have known each other since a long time ago. They are childhood friend. The relationship built between them was more than a best friend. So close; more than a brother-sister relationship. Yet, they are not a couple. They prefer to choose their own path, living their life alone. Even though, everyone knows they will end up together. But, who are you?

Who are you, trying to grab his place on hers? 'You should not do that' everybody said so. Why did not you listen, boy? They are too intimate as friend and you know it. Now that you forced winning his place, it is inappropriate! I just surprised that, boy, you made it. You did something which was thought impossible to be possible. Secretly you walk to her when he does not watch. Staring at her laughing cutely, stole glances many times so your eyes would meet hers. Yes, you seems able approaching his dearest 'friend'.

Well, you do not realize one thing. No matter how well you covered your actions in front of him, still he became suspicious of you. Please, stop in this. She is so attractive to whoever the person she met. Even so, knowing her really close with him pulls everybody to stop. He is burdened, though. Wanting to keep her to be his without her knowing. Hope you will understand someday, boy...

Why....Kenapa?

2011-12-09T05:21:00.000-08:00

Knowing Skandar Keynes (or other bias) has a girlfriend may hurt, but knowing he likes her so much is more hurtful ~mine

*For anyone who's not Indonesian, sorry. I'll use Indonesian in this post. Use quote above for clue*

I just envy some people. That is, including my own sista. Aku tahu dia sudah beranjak dewasa. SMP.... Memasuki masa-masa naksir lawan jenisnya. Aku gak ngelarang dia suka siapa pun, termasuk ini kakak kelasnya. Yang membuatku envy: Nasibnya ~~yang sama kayak orang-orang lain~~ bahwa orang itu pun suka juga padanya. Mungkin kalian enggak berpikiran itu gak adil. Tapi bagiku itu karena dia lumayan tinggi untuk anak seusianya. Aku? Bah, jangan ditanya. Lihat profilku. Mengagetkan kalau aku posting something like this. Yah, karena aku orangnya suka mellow dan Melankolis - banget malah. Cuma, karena kombinasi koleris-melankolis-ku kuat jadi aku bisa menutupi perasaan dari adikku. #sedikitpsikologisodarasodara

Aku senang kok buat dia, cuma heran saja. Makanya, kata-katanya gitu. Sudahlah, abaikan saja semuanya. Para pembaca diharap jangan membaca!!! Ini cuma curahan kata-kata doang kok. Hehehe... Saya sudah baikan setelah nge-posting ini. So, DO NOT ASK!!!

Real deal - doctor's apprentice

2011-12-09T05:01:00.000-08:00

Time really does not fly... It has the speed of light; faster and faster. It has been 9 December today :) I just feel little bit uncomfortable with myself.

O ya, these last 5 days, I had worked in two clinics. Not officially work, it's like being an apprentice - sorta volunteering - because my school asked me too. I dunno how to explain, in Indonesian it's called as 'magang' thing. Well, at first I was shy because I was afraid to do something wrong (and still I AM). There are really a lot of things I've learned. A LOT!!!! *By the way, I became apprentice in clinic 'cause I wanna be a doctor. Pray for me ^_^*

1st day: Using manual sphygmomanometer to know people's blood pressure. Since it is manual, it is hard to hear the heartbeat correctly fit with number which unit is cm/Hg - [FAILED] So, I decided to focus on administration and learning so many medicine's name.

2nd day: The admin person was sick; my friend and I were busy due to it. Both of us then had fun with that though. We were sometimes mistaken as ones of graduated scholars #wasnotexpectingthis -____-!

3rd day: Different clinic - so quiet. So SLEEPY and missing my 1st and 2nd day, oddly enough to say. So, we watched a person whose teeth were kinda patched. We also asked some questions and I learned to use sphygmomanometer OR blood pressure meter correctly [SUCCEED] ----> HAPPY XDDDDD

4th day: Some patients came (fiuh... FINALLY!). I was asked TO PRACTICE :O by the doctor herself. I was not ready. Yet, I could get it right :3 Also, I learned more about the modules of doctors and how did they 'surged' corpse *it's really scary. I can not post it in my blog here even if I wish to :S*

5th day: Last day - today. Can't believe it was over this soon. I came to the same clinic as yesterday at first, then I went to clinic of the first day. I was so excited since I got intensive learning on yesterday and able to help the doctor pretty well.

Haha... That's all for today. I should make some reports and submit it later on.. G'bye C:

DECEMBER cx

2011-12-01T09:54:00.000-08:00

Hey... Today is my last day of exams...!!!! SOOOOOOO HAAAPPPPPPYYYYY!!!! Yippee for me ^______________________________^

Sadly, I still have many things-to-do, whether it's a school's task or church's tasks or my other private business. Anyway, I was so relieved that today is the last day of exams - for me and some students. Yet, I also feel somewhat nervousness towards the result. I'm not really sure though... I had sleepless night during these days so I don't think that my brain works maximally d:

Eng, I just realized something. I just knew where does the reader of my blog. All of them mostly dragged here by the 'Barbie-Fashionista' thingy XD *Check my post on November 2010*

That's why there are seemed to be many 'visitors' in my blog. I'm actually feeling sorry for they who type Barbie and/or Fashionista and stumbled upon my blog. Really really sorry if you had actually once - kinda - trapped in this blog >_<

Last but not least...

Happy 1st Day of December and Happy Last month of the Year 2011 (X

I hope we all have fun in these next days

お別れね

Is it true. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .?

2011-11-28T07:47:00.000-08:00

via xfaithfullyours (tumblr)

Adorable Life-Parallel Cartoons

2011-11-26T07:32:00.000-08:00

>Haha... Just a short post. These are so adorable yet those kinda happen in everybody's life, I assume. Love it.

PAUSE

2011-11-26T06:50:00.000-08:00

I just need to take a break for a while. My home stay seems so crowded right now :S I guess I should tell the story simply. So, the owner of my home stay is Balinese. She and her husband have 4 children; 2 married and 2 still single. One of the married child is a daughter which was pregnant for her third child. She and her two children - the owner's grandchildren - have been here for quite a few weeks. However, I did not realize, exactly last week she gave birth to her cute - and now becomes noisy - baby girl (19th Nov 2011).

I actually have fun with the two kids, boy and girl, during these days even though I should study hard for my exams. Notwithstanding the efforts of studying, I feel like sudden death facing those exams. Especially Math HL. I was so disappointed by myself with Chemistry Paper 2. I know I can do it all; since I too focus on counting problems, I could not catch up the other part. Yesterday was English A2 Paper 2 and I just sank in the blankness. Honestly, today I did not do my household thingy which is often tiring. I just try to refresh my mind and mental. That's why I need a PAUSE button in my life. I want to have some rest without using so much time. Selfish and rather impossible, huh? Yeah... I should pray to God to help me arrange my time well enough.

Enjoying the time with the baby though... She still in her reddish skin ! ! ! Haha, but I also played with the two kids. They felt a little bit ignored when the baby 'came' to this home. The kids like to pull a prank themselves. Thus, I try to separate them with giving each of them 'job' to do. Then I got a nick-name of 'Guru TK' of Kindergarten teacher. Staying from 4 days ago, their Dad told me that I might have the passion and patience for kids (?). Obviously yes, I LOVE KIDS and I have the passion X) But patience? No, I don't think so.

Quite a tough post today...

The highlight:

God, please give me a break :o

Adiós amigo!

NB: Shorten the posts shown right now, to save more places :P

(Mock) Exams COMINGGG!!!

2011-11-18T09:35:00.000-08:00

Don't feel like sleeping right now :s Just finished 1 Indonesian novel straight and 7/8 *I think* on more than 400 pages of novel... Kinda crazy but it's A MUST for the exams discussion... I shall reviewing for 3 ENGLISH books....! Well, a lot of preparation and studies should be done...

I'm not that confidence but the only thing that now I can lean on is Chemistry (?) SL subjects...Because I seem to like that lesson --> easier to be understood. Perhaps I need to study more on long theories much, I'd prefer analyze questions rather explaining theories >,< Sadly, Biology HL required both theories and analyses as strong as possible. God, I surrender all to you... May YOU bless me and my friends in this MOCK Exams.

I dunno about my Physics even though I take Standard Level. I have to practice A LOT! So confusing ); And don't forget MATH HL, it is much more 'fun' than you ever thought, YEYYY!! *crazy mode: on*

Yesterday, I found this COOL hairstyle ^^ Very unique and adorable at the same time. The mom must be very creative thinking of this hairstyle....

This is the result of crossing french braids + pigtails

Very wonderful seeing this and it's very cute ^^ I LOVE IT...

However, I don't think I could do it as it was not a self made. I'm just wishing if I have the skill to braids well XD Oh, well, back to main focus...

So the think is that, I'm not sure that I could blogging for a while :C It's for my good sake... But don't worry, I think I'm gonna blog whenever my brain going to explode XP Okay, see you then..

Credit of Hairstyle: Hairstyle For Girls

Braided hair ^O^

2011-11-15T22:43:00.000-08:00

Recently, I'm thinking of cutting my hair (?) or just get it tidier... Too long hair can distressed me too sometimes ;) Especially when dealing with school and study, haha. I also nearly thought of cutting my hair that reaches end of my back to be my shoulder length. Only, I don't think I could do that actually >,<

So, these recent days, I did try to do some experiments with my hair...
Also, it helps me to have variations when I go to school later on. This day, I bumped into very nice and cool braid XD As the day went on, I found that that it is called Bohemian braid and sometimes called as waterfall braids since some hair seemed to pass on the hair.

The Bohemian Braid <3 <3

Credit to Anastasia on We heart it

I just got love at the first sight with the braids, yippee.... >O< Well, if I can do it by myself, it looks very nice for my hair Xp Usually, for every 'weird' braids type, I asked my Ma to do it. Since I went to Surabaya, the best thing I can do is BASIC BRAIDS which go 'over' or 'under' *girls, I think you would understand* ",) So, yeah... Wondering around in Youtube, I found this AMAZING tutorial which is called as SNAKE BRAID!!!! I had never even thought about this before... I actually am interested, it seemed easy but so hard to do it practically T___T That's all for today I think... So long, all :D (posted the vid below ^O^)

Eh?!

2011-11-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

Wasn't really able to post anything during November. Oh yeah, I'm gonna finishing my story and post all of the 'GREAT' pictures I shot in my precious holiday <3

By the way, yesterday I joined industrial technique competition composed of math basically, logic and economy.
It's been veeeeerrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyy long time ago since I felt challenged. However, I did not make it to the final... But I got 23rd rank out of 59... Pretty good, huh? *bragging! XD Instead, there was one group - Pris and Davin - made it to final. I wonder if they got the prize ^0^ Yey!!!!

Well, I guess I need more practice. Recently, I also went to Jakarta for uni test. It was pretty hard because I haven't learned much in the subject in chemistry questions of UPH - that is organic chemistry.... Despite of not getting scholarship, I AM accepted as regular student ^^ What a joy!!

Actually, I also got something to confess *innocent face* Ehm... What do you feel if someone says you're beautiful/handsome? Hm... I felt little - just a little - flattered... You know girls =^^= He's younger and he's nobody to me. But I just realized now that he was - indirectly said that *blush-blush* XDDDD I had no idea before this, but I started to control myself not giving 'hope' (?) for him. Ma said that if a girl gave too much hope for the she doesn't love, it will hurt the guy and someday the girl would fall too... Errr... Did I talk too much?? Sorry U_U That's all I want to write today. Nighty night all ^^

q:

2011-11-05T11:48:00.000-07:00

Just bored and want to eat actually. I mostly eat when I'm stress, bad mood, or finishing school works... (-__-) Basically, I'm fatter now... Oh NOOOOO 000X I craved for food like crazy, then I decided to see tumblr to find best looking food - to satisfy my eyes only, not my tummy... Here are some that very-very tempting me XD If only I could find them in real :/

Credit goes to Food-directory, Yummy Food, Love Food, and FFF

This cutie cupcakes ~_~

Chocolate cake - what I really LOVE <3

Also wanna try Korean food X)

Now, I'm really starving, hahaha... Oky guys... have a great day :D

Sweet-test November?

2011-11-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

Hm... Today is the fourth day of November. At first I just feel like 'Okay, this is November so what?'...

but then, few seconds later I turned like crazy 'WHAT! Is this NOVEMBER??? WHoa, 2011 will come to AN END!!!'

I also realized that from artists until my friends around me already get the early chill of Christmas... Honestly, I'm overloaded with all the IB stuffs starts from essays, IA, EE, tests - all jumbling upon my mind. My school posted this : 'Have a SWEET November'. I just laughed since this month I will face one of the hardest tests. So annoying (¬_¬) I also easily got sleepy recently. Is it because of IB Diploma? I guess so :s Thereby, I never realized that Christmas will come soon. It's better to flow with time for me, rather than wanting to celebrate Christmas sooner. Besides, there are so much to do before Christmas, I dunno if I could make all of it.

Nah... I think so for today. It's just complicated. Oh, by the way I want to share a video. It's from kpop thingy, but it has the sweetest tone ever ^___^ The music video might a bit scary, but actually it tries to capture the lyrics perfectly. So, here it is... I'll post the translation below :D

Cleansing Cream - Brown Eyed Girls Ballad song

It hurts, it hurts - my closed heart - a lot, a lot
Oh my honey, honey baby - what do I do?

After playing like crazy all day, I erase my thick makeup
Will I forget by being like this?
Looking quite miserable, on top of my half-erased cheeks
On top of the half-erased lipstick,
The fallen tears melt with the cleansing cream

Why, why, why, unni?
All throughout the night, why can't I forget him?
Why, why, why, unni?
With my blackened and smeared tears, I can't forget him
And I stubbornly say, bye, bye

* What do I do, unni? I want to sleep now
But my heart keeps running to him
What to do, unni? I don't think I can go on like this
Please, can you have a drink with me? I ask of you, unni

Have you ever been in love?
Have you ever really loved?
Love - for others it's so easy
But for me, it's like an unerasable tattoo
I empty my glass again

Today, there was a really great guy who asked me out
But I kept seeing him
I stupidly ran out from that place,
I stupidly couldn't do anything
What's the use of pretty makeup?

Why, why, why, unni?
(Why can't I forget this one guy for all this time
Unintentional memories get erased in the far distance
He already forgot about me)
Why, why, why, unni?
With my blackened and smeared tears, I can't forget him
And I stubbornly say, bye, bye
Why, why, why

* repeat

Please party with me
I don't want to erase my makeup yet
I ask of you, unni

It hurts, it hurts - my closed heart - a lot, a lot
Oh my honey, honey baby - what do I do?

It hurts, it hurts - my closed heart - a lot, a lot
Oh my honey, honey baby - what do I do?

Note: I just think this song matches me well :P I'm not THAT in love, but I just really can't stand the feeling so yeah... Hope all of you enjoy ^^

http://www.popgasa.com/2011/11/brown-eyed-girls-cleansing-cream.html <<<< Translation^^

Surabaya :)

2011-11-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

Random thoughts today.... November is known for 10th November in Indonesia. It is heroic day especially for the city I live in, Surabaya. It was also the day when my Grandpa from Ma passed away in 2006 D: So memorable, heroic, and sad. He was a doctor, so I know he was also hero for many people...

After this, I want to continue my uni to become a doctor just like him. One male cousin from Ma's side already in uni and next year I'll join him too, hopefully ^O^ Well, that's for this early month... Bye-bye

The City: The Rose, The Buildings, and The Foods :)

2011-10-26T08:46:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures I took during my PRECIOUS holiday. I only upload what I thought to be the good ones... Tag and comments please^^

The most remarkable rose :O

The most YUMMY WRAP I ever had :P

Beautiful flowers...

All people busy with their own :/

The foods never fail XD

One play that always been discussed in class. Sadly, I couldn't watch it :(

Univesities coming...! Scary

2011-10-25T05:25:00.003-07:00

Next month in November, there will be mock exam. It is an 'pretending' exams to know how high our ability to answer the same kind of questions. The real tests will be in May, which contains all chapters I learned from grade 11 until January. Perhaps, there are around 15 until 30 chapters for each lesson XO TOO MUCH...

I just realize that I am almost reaching my uni years. It just that I didn't expect it would come THIS FAST. O ya, later on Saturday, I am going to have test of entering one Uni in Jakarta. So, I will go on Friday and meet my Pa :D and then preparing for the tests. I should learn Math, English (which I did by writing in blog XD), Chemistry and Biology. Oops... I haven't learned Bio and Chem by the way... Meh... Just see it later of the day.

I guess I also need to do something to this blog ^-^ I've written 'In Between: Part 1'. I must write the continuation and post it in here, Yey :) Moreover, I want to post some great pictures by me *not THAT great actually* that were taken during my holiday. I wanna share it later and want to know your opinion. Don't forget to tag if you like the photos :p Or if you want to comment and criticize them, no problem for me... So long :)

Long time no see in real X)

2011-10-24T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hey, hey, hey!!! Been busy in schools lately. All the posts in 2011 actually were kept safely on drafts. I just couldn't find the right time to post it ^^ In a sudden, I missed this blog so much hehehe. Recently, I am suffering from an illness named kpop, hahaha... Well, I got it not really this lately. It was my friend who brought the memories in junior high school about anime, manga, Japanese and Korean things especially the songs. So, here I am. Back to the old time yeah /(^0^)/

By the way, IB Diploma is getting tougher and tougher with bunches of papers, essays, and other things stuffed on my desks. Actually, I'm kinda stressed out with this senior year. However, I feel motivated by something (or anyone?) to graduate with the best scores I can get. And yes, I would try my best for reaching my goal next year... Yippee for me!!

With Ma ^_____^

2011-10-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

So, today is mid-semester day!!! Should I be happy or nervous? Oh, doesn't matter anyway. Besides, my Ma comes to Surabaya yeyyy... XDDDD

Today, I got my report card. I was so proud of my Indonesian getting 7 out of 7 - it's my first language actually. Still, it needs a lot of works since we talked not only about the 'grammar' but about literature and social life. However, my English score was 4 out of 7 and I feel soooooo horrible :C My Ma said that I must have more practice. I think I already did that, but why no significant things happened? Should've tried harder >,<

Biology was surprising: I got 7!!! It's in higher level which is very complicated indeed. Yet, achieving 7 in the report card challenges me to keep it up all the way until graduating. Aja-aja Fighting, Ganbatte, Jia yo, Semangat for MEEE!!! I got 7 for Chemistry too, but I kinda like that subject so I SHOULD HAVE GOT IT :D Math HL made me shock. I always get 5 before in the starter of Math stuff but now I can have 6 in my report car. It was something to be proud of... And I really grateful and thankful to God for His blessings towards me :) I just a bit disappointed with Physic. I got 5 for this mid-term. Well, it should be good enough, but my teacher still made my score not as the standard thing of rounding off so I got 5 :S

Okay, that's all for today. Oh, I almost forgot somethin': My Ma and I went to Häagen-Dazs® Cafe in Galaxy Mall. Below are some photos that I took before eating them off. Feel free to comment anything ^^ Yum....

I: (: c: qx o:

2011-10-02T19:34:00.000-07:00

나 도 사랑해, あなたをに愛して, Je t'aime, ich liebe dich, ti amo, Я люблю тебя, te amo

Random post today. I just feel like it. Bored but don't have anything to say. If you think I got all of those from Mr. Google, well not quite right. recently I learned Korean and I've been interested to Japanese, French, German, and Spanish. Spanish is somewhat similar to Italiano, so it is also included XD For the Russian, I know how it's pronounced since I've met one Russian during my holiday :D It's pronounced some kind of 'Ya lubelu [not really sure] tebia'. Haven't checked Google for the pronouncement, but using it to get the font. Only for German I used Google translate, but others written online by me X) *PROUD* Well, I guess it's fine for me to do somethin' else. Bay-bay all...

Mmmh....

2011-09-24T04:15:00.000-07:00

Yeah, this is just random post. Ow, yesterday it was just my heart-pouring thing. Since I did not have chance to tell people so I just made it up. Thanks for your attention to read it (if you really read XD).

Well, I think I've grown up, but it does not make me become a mature teen. Still, I feel the change on how I'm judging people right now. Dunno why, but sometime I feel like hating myself. So, okay then. See ya all

Rasa

2011-09-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

Seandainya, kau mengerti apa yang kurasakan. Karena aku sendiri pun tidak tahu tentang apa yang sebenarnya kurasakan. Rasa itu muncul dari suatu yang tidak ada menjadi ada. Sejak kapan, aku tidak tahu dan tak ingin mengetahuinya. Rasa itu beragam; ringan namun berat, menekan atau melegakan, sesuatu yang tak terdefinisi.

Yang kutahu, rasa itu membuat aku tegang menghadapimu. Tiba-tiba saja aku mau meledak kalau rasa itu tidak ditahan-tahan. Apa pun sebabnya, aku menjadi gemetar bila bersamamu. Tersirap darahku hanya karena melihat dirimu. Malau aku bila terlihat bercela olehmu. Rasa itu mendorong aku ke arahmu.

Aku mulai terlatih untuk melapisi rasa ini dengan topeng. Bahagia dan nikmat rasa ini, walau memaksaku untuk berlaku lebih. Rasa ini menggelitik penesaranku hanya khusus tentang kamu. Hampir-hampir aku menjadi mata-mata demi sebuah pengertian yang memuaskan rasa ini. Rasa ini menjadi bagian hidupku.

Saat aku berada di dekatmu rasa ini mendorong aku untuk menarik perhatianmu. Bila gagal, rasa itu menodong aku lemah lesu. Aku ingin menunjukkan rasa ini padamu, tapi aku tidak mau kau tahu rasa itu ada. Dualisme menjadi gejolak batin dalam diriku. Rasa ini menyiksa, tapi berat untuk dilepaskan. Saat kau tersenyum, rasa itu menarik senyumku juga. Bahkan tanpa kusadari, kau bertanya-tanya mengapa aku begitu aneh di dekatmu. Kau heran apa yang sebenarnya terjadi denganku, mengira otakku kacau-balau.

Padahal dengan seribu satu macam cara aku mengatur rasa ini. Kutaruh dalam-dalam di batinku dilapisi emosi ceria yang datar. Kututup celah-celah pikiranku agar tidak dipengaruhi rasa yang tiba-tiba membara. Namun, sia-sia saja sebab rasa itu mencuat dengan sendirinya. Jika hanya ada diriku seorang, kubiarkan rasa itu menguasaiku. Enak sekali, batinku yang lelah dan letih terpuaskan. Hanya karena satu hal, rasa.

Sekarang, rasa itu seperti menindih jantungku. Aku dibekukan dalam waktu yang terus berjalan. Entah mengapa saat kau bersamanya rasa di dalamku berontak. Ia menyuruhku untuk mencengkrammu ke arahku. Tetapi akku tidak mentaatinya kali ini. Rasa itu selalu kusembunyikan, tidak pantas jika rasa itu kubiarkan menggelora. Perlahan tapi pasti, kubiarkan rasa itu memanaskan tubuhku. Kuterima sakit dalam dadaku karena rasa. Kuberikan rasa itu jalan keluar melalui kedua bola mataku. Kuhilangkan semua lapisan emosi dan kubolehkan rasa itu menguasai aku sepenuhnya. Saat sendirian, hanya sendirian. Lemas tubuhku, melepas semua yang pernah diterima dari rasa yang sedang ada. Lembap pipiku, mengeringkan rasa yang pernah ada. Terurai senyumku, sekali ini saja, untuk merelakan rasa itu. Aku tahu rasa itu pernah ada. Rasa itu bersisa sedikit sekarang. Tetapi aku mengerti sekarang. Rasa itu harus dikeluarkan seutuhnya. Kemudian, aku akan menjadi aku yang baru, yang berbeda dari sebelumnya, tanpa sesuatu yang harus ditutupi.

Happy B'day Mom!!

2011-09-11T23:41:00.000-07:00

Okay, so today people are remembering the incident of WTC (World Trade Center) 2001. It happened 10 years ago, but the scar still left until now. Well, it's not baout it anyway.

As you can see from the title, today is my Ma's birthday :DDDD

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY, MA!!!

I was soooo sad and burdened that I couldn't celebrate my Ma's birthday together with her. O ya. My Ma told me that her friends give her very unexpected surprise ^______^ But I don't know what present should I give for her :( Anyone has an idea??? Comment ya... Wkwkwkwk...

Physics-physics Yey (¬_¬!)

2011-08-31T23:48:00.000-07:00

Hmf... SO THIS IS HOLIDAY!!! Why the IB students should have so much to do. For the last three days I had been going to school to get extra Physics lesson. I went to school by bike, fyi. It's TIRING but at least I've burnt some calories from my body XD

We get the extra lessons from 9 to 12 am. As usual for Indonesian people, most of us came late. O ya, our class consists of 6 actually. Sadly, only 4 of us who were able to join the class :/ By the way, since I went to school with bike, my friends asked me to get ride on it. So, when they waited to be picked up, we played with my own bike. I just know that there is one classmate who can't really ride 2-wheeled bike well. Anyway, it was still a lot of fun rather than staying at home stressed with home works. Okay, then. I guess it is enough for today. Wanna get massage first XP Tatatata ^O^

Heartbroken (again?)

2011-08-27T20:14:00.000-07:00

It turned out that I still like that person....

If there is someone out there that can tell me about what love is about. I really need it. I just don't know what I'm feeling. My chest feels heavier and heavier these days. Especially, I also had soooo much home works in the holiday. He should not leave this holiday, but suddenly his family must go to elsewhere this holiday. I also suspecting him that he likes someone... Ugh... i even dunno what I am writing about!! Hate you, but... Aah... Confusing...

Happy Independence Day, INDONESIA!

2011-08-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

Last year, the students should wear Batik when we followed flag ceremony. This time, we shouldn't, which is not really nice I supposed. Well, but others think it's GREAT. Okay, so I always join the flag ceremony and also today I did. The thing was, I didn't join any competitions today, sad :( It's because I had another event in church. My church assumed that everybody had holiday in the Independence Day. Yes to adult, not for student X(

By the way, the event was held in Kertajaya. Relatively near from my school but I went to Andhika instead at first!!! It was long-long way - know my post about erha21? - yeah today is kinda like that. This is worse since I've gone long-long-loooongggg way and found no one there. I just realized I misunderstood the info about the event. There was local flag ceremony in Surabaya - near TP which means near Andhika - so the place was changed in Kertajaya Indah to avoid that ceremony thingy. Shocked much, I ran to find another taxi to go back to Kertajaya Indah. I grumbled along the way 'cause I'd spent more than Rp50.000 that day!!!

The event was about singing technique. We were taught about how to sing classical song beautifully. The main things are we should understand the song and the situation of the song. We not only should sing from our deepest heart but also could express our emotion based on the right technique. From then, there were some soloists came front to be taught. I was also appointed as one of soloist two weeks before. I would performed and the teacher would fix my singing technique. But, yeah... I screwed up, guys ;_; I was TOO NERVOUS when I performed. The teacher, an elder woman in her 50s, said that I actually had potential =''= but was TOO SHY and y'know... NERVOUS. Anyway, I was too focusing on myself that I forgot my dearest country.

So, happy 66th Birthday Indonesia

Happy Indepence Day, all!!!

End of month

2011-07-31T21:00:00.000-07:00

Now it's almost the end of July. We're getting busy right now. I haven't told ya somethin' : Got a new English teacher from US. She is Mexican and she's fluent in SPANISH!! I remembered the cute Spanish guy and I wanted to learn Spanish language too XD Unluckily, he's already engaged. Of course, he seemed like 23-years-old or nearer to it. Still, I want to learn many languages as possible as I could. :3 It seems fantastic if I could switch suddenly from one language to others. Promise to be expert in languages #toomuch

Okay, so I know Buenos Diaz and Buenos Aires already. This is the last week of July, so I should get present in church cause I wasn't here at June. Well, no present and no one remembered to give it :-/ They just congratulate me through mobile phone and fb and twitter. That's okay though, I'M 16!!! #moveongals

Yeah, kinda disappointed but we need to take the good part of it, I'm more mature now X) Yeah, happy me.. So long guys ^________^

Coolest Stuffs

2011-07-24T07:31:00.000-07:00

I found this site accidentally. S/he is Korean person who devoted to photography things. That's basically I can get for brief time. So, I just wanna share this COOL pictures. Enjoy :D

After Holiday

2011-07-17T13:45:00.000-07:00

Hi, all. I'm back... After a month... I had the greatest experience ever in my holiday (^0^)/ I wanted to bring my family though. It was so nice that I couldn't explain with words ~ especially in English. So lovely and nice XDDDD

This year I'm 16. This is the first time I celebrated my birthday without families, cakes, and present (my sista already gave my present before I went to London :p) and I kinda had a usual student life in there. Imagine, on my birthday I got placement test. Hey, but guess what? I met - saw exactly - a French guy like Skandar Keynes!!!! OH, I'M STILL WONDERING IF THAT WAS JUST A DREAM >O< Fyi, Skandar Keynes is 'Edmund' in the Chronicles of Narnia movies and I'm in love with Skandar - not with the French guy fortunately xp. Hehe.... The day before, Indonesian friends and I saw one cute guy of EF person. Hihihi... he was Spanish. I don't know how to explain but my Indo friends said that he was like Fabregas... If you know Fabregas, you know what is he qX

However, I wasn't there just for it, I also learned English a lot 'cause I surrounded by English all the time. My host family was from India who lived in London for about plus minus 17 years :O So long enough, older than my age =D Wah, but I should back to reality since school starts now. G'bye dear all... Love ya...

Test-Task-Work(?)

2011-05-21T05:55:00.000-07:00

Wah, it's almost the end of school year 2010/2011 already. So fast, yet so unrealizable. Well, I have a great news for me... I will have my birthday on June!!! And, I will have it in LONDON!! Oh my gosh, my gosh, MY GOSH!!! It is EF course home-stay program and my Pa asked me to go there!!! Actually, I preferred Aussie. It's nearer. However, Pa and Ma insisted me since he wanted me to have GREAT experience. What a very nice and great parents :')

I think it's quite worth it 'cause I'll be leaving high school and focusing on college days. It's still next year though, that's fine. Even though, one year feels like a day. So I'm quite worried too. By the way, for my tests I tried my best. You know, the teachers made me crazy with the schedule. Imagine, I had Bio and Chem for one day, and Physic and Math for the next day!!!!! Very stressing. I think that's all friends. Hope I could catch up all :D

Kartini Day

2011-04-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

April>>> will be full of tests and mock exam. I'm taking IB so I should know and responsible for the risk. (¬_¬!) It's for my future anyway, so move on, YEYYY *crazy mode: on*

I'm really at stress right now since so many home works are waiting in front of me. They called and pulled me to finish them STRAIGHT AWAY!! *depressed*

Btw, this month will also has some events like Kartini's Day. It's a day in Indonesia celebrating a woman who force people to give the same education for girls. Without her, I don't think I would be able to write this right no so yeah...

Happy Kartini Day ^_____^

Funny cake

2011-03-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

I had Reacter lesson; or should I call it as religion? So, we were learning about family and we also learned that only 1 husband with 1 wife allowed, not more. When I research something, I accidentally found this, which is sooooo related to my lesson. Well, below is the cutie 'reality' cake :D

Happy Anniversarry & B'day Dad!!

2011-02-25T17:00:00.000-08:00

Today, is my Pa's birthday... He's 45 now :) Since I am in Surabaya, I couldn't visit him ;_; and my Ma, Pa and little sister should celebrate it by the three of them. Last 2 weeks, it was Pa & Ma's anniversary day. It reached 18th years old, ihiyyy!!! I want to tell somethin' 'bout it.

Last week, me and all grade 11 were in Bandung for WWW (Week Without Walls). It was three days program and we saw and went to many places including some distro in Bandung.

Well, there are some photos of it. The silly thing about me was that I FORGOT THEIR ANNIVERSARY!!! Just at first eventually. So, my Ma called me if I was okay and asked what would my activities that day. After hung it up, I just thought, , like "Hey, it's 11th February," and called my Ma back saying sorry and happy anniversary. There it was. Now, I want to congratulate my Pa:

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY, DAD!!!

Romance :P

2011-02-19T04:48:00.000-08:00

February, guys :D Time for Valentine...XD I just wanna share this cutie picture. here...

2011

2011-01-13T04:36:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 ALL!

Ha... I know it's really late... I didn't have so much time for computer and laptop during holidays... Weird, huh? Yes, it is. It just because I should finish 3 PHYSICS LAB REPORT while 2010 was turning into 2011. I missed all fun T^T So, sad... What can I do, btw? I also had Chem, Bio, and Indo tasks. I already done with Indo and Chem. Bio was a lot of work... I guess so for now. Ta - ta - ta ^^

Merry Christmast!!!

2010-12-25T04:14:00.000-08:00

Yey, it's DECEMBER!!! I think time flies more than rocket. Well, I'm getting busier every time. I got tests and tasks so many. By the way, I just wanna say...

"MERRY CHRISTMAS 25 December 2010"

REPORT CARD - School Stops, Holiday Yey!

2010-12-17T20:00:00.000-08:00

Yippee...!!! No school today... Coz I got my report card and this means Christmas is getting near :D But, I also feel quite depressed. All subjects that I take got high mark, except for Physics!!! Oh, I think that is the most hardest lesson in the world (T^T) Imagine, I got 3 out of 7!!!! THREE!!! Omgosh... My sista cheered me up and my Ma and Pa said that I should work harder.

By the way, there are still some home works. So, yeah holiday is still the same.

Indonesian food with chopstick??

2010-12-12T23:30:00.000-08:00

Hm... Well, okay. So, this is December already. I got my confirmation of faith today XD (I dunno the English for 'sidi' in the church). I am very happy since my grandparents and my aunt and uncle from my Pa's side did come to my church just to see me :) I actually wanted to post my photo, but I'm not that brave =''=

Then, there is some kind of celebration in the night. So, my family and I went to Citraland, where my aunt of Pa's side lived. Near their house, there were many restaurants and so we chose to eat in Fish resto (not exactly the name :P). It was specialized in grilled fish, baked (?) fish, fried fish, and more about fish. Yet, my little cousin took noodle for her dinner (-_-!) Oh well, she didn't understand.

If the adults were using proper spoons, forks and banana leaves (for traditional food), I ate the food differently. I wanted to try using chopsticks to eat Kangkung. It was REALLY hard! I mean it. Indonesian foods are not made for chopsticks. Even for the grilled fish meats. It seemed easy to take the meat with chopsticks, but I was fail for more than 4 times. Yeah... But anyway, thanks to God that now I am admitted to be maturer in term of faith. I promise to not loose my faith and to keep it grow bigger and stronger :) See ya guys.

formspring.me

2010-11-20T06:54:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything... http://formspring.me/Echka

Barbie-Fashionista :D

2010-11-14T11:04:00.000-08:00

Been busy with home works and stuffs recently. So I decided to make a short post.

Just like Barbie the fashionista's game :) But now there are 2nd edition of it......which for me it's better the old one U_U Some of the doll's photographers were commenting why Barbie likes to be blonde. They want more dolls being darker as in this world not only white people who exist. I don't think that's important though, but I think they're quite right. Hm...I just want to post the pictures... You can see the differences from them.. Bye c:

THE OLD VERSION <3

NEW VERSION (first one is my wallpaper ^^)

My CareLess Me ):

2010-11-02T16:46:00.000-07:00

Wawawa.... It's getting closer to the end of 2010! :O

Long time no blogging, sorry ^^V

Well, this because I was too busy to update my blog and as my friends also said, BLAME IB >,<

If you read this post, you'll think that I used TOO MANY emoticons. I don't know why but recently I like to write everything plus my feeling. So, yeah... I like more emoticons!!! ^O^ Maybe it's also the side effect of taking IB. I admitted that I much distressed nowadays. Bunches of home works already waiting later on *after I done with this post, I mean.

I didn't tell that I lost my mobile phone right? Hm, actually it happened at around September. Same like the title, I was careless ",) Hm, how to tell ya...? I just finished from my course and near that place, there was GIANT supermarket. I couldn't - precisely can't - ride a car or even motor cycle. I'm 15 and my parents haven't allowed me yet '^' I know, it's not good for me. Besides, my height also........not too tall ;D So, from and to my home-stay I should call a taxi started with B*** B***. Usually the taxi comes little bit longer than 15 minutes. But at that time the driver was too diligent. He passed through the car's parking area twice and then waited me across.... *selokan(?)* I dunno what's the English of that ",)

At that time, my mobile phone was in my pocket. You know the type NOKIA 5310? It's slim but long, so it didn't fit with my pocket. Then, realizing that the taxi was across the selokan I just wanted to save my time and JUMPED across it. I didn't know that my hand-phone falling from my pocket and landed somewhere near the ground - I knew it later on. Before the taxi dropped me off, I wanted to tell my parents to not call me late at night because of too many home work. Suddenly, I realized it WASN'T in my pocket. I started to panic. I borrowed the driver's phone to call mine. Immediately, I asked the driver to go back to the place and meanwhile I tried to call the phone. When we got there, I couldn't find the phone on the ground but when I called again I heard someone's speaking. At first I was so surprised and happy that my phone didn't sink in the *you know* selokan. But when I called my phone again and asked to the person where she was (because I thought that it was woman's voice). Instead answering my question, she hung the phone and when I called again for the 3rd time, my number wasn't active T___T

I hold myself to not cry. But, when I arrived at home I just sobbing and phoned my parents using my friend's phone. What a terrible and horrible and very bad day!!!!!!

Ugh.... I just hate myself because I was careless and arrgggghhh.....

And today, well I carelessly dropped my phone to the parking area and the parking area blistered my phone., the new one NOKIA X6. Ouch... It's not cool anymore >,<

Btw, I just realized this is the longest post ever ^-^ So, that's all.

Unclear

2010-10-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

Through my eyes

I saw from far

A thing

It was fairly blue

I thought it was blue

But it was nearly blue

And I realized it WASN'T blue

Unless, it was a fake blue

Middle of September

2010-09-23T02:05:00.000-07:00

Hi, it's already in the middle of September and I haven't added any update yet ;( Well, actually I was having 2 weeks holiday for Idul Fitri day. The holiday started from 4 until 19 September. But I got so many home works to do and also I thought it would be better to tidy up my room. So, I rarely check my blog at that time.

This week, there is a Connecting Project in my school. The project is between Cita Hati Christian High School with John Paul College from Australia. As an IB student, I must join this activity to get plus point and may be adding some CAS (Creative, Active and Service) hours. Hence, I'm still busy in this week and only have this little time to have an update. You know, we should gather at 6.30 am!!! It makes me stress out. Tomorrow will be worst I think, 'cause we should gather in school at 5.30 am! What a time....

I hope I could finish my story before this. But I still don't have time to write all down. So that's all for now. Ta-ta ^^

Huh, huft, hmf...

2010-08-10T00:49:00.000-07:00

Hi, hi! It's been 10th August now!!! One more week is INDONESIA'S INDEPENDENCE DAY... Unfortunately, I will not have holiday );

I don't have time to post the continuation of the stories, but I just wanna post something. So, I admit that I'm really tired and a bit - a very little bit - depressed about being an IB student. It hasn't been a month but I already had 1 Math Quiz, 1 Math Test, 1 Biology Quiz, 1 Biology presentation task, 1 Chemistry lab report, 1 Physic-Vector homework, 1 TOK essay (which must have 500-600 words!), 1 English homework every meeting, and some others. So, the total of home works that I have in less than a month is more than 8!!!! Okay, I think I should have rest now. Bye...

In Between (part 1)

2010-07-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

They both were my best friends.

They both were the closest people for me.

They both always shared and solved problems together with me.

They always gave me the best solution for all of my problems except now. They had a conflict which I couldn't help. They said it was between 'man and man' problem. Something goes wrong. I knew it. They'd never been fighting for even the simplest reason. But not now. They're changing into different person. And I think, so am I. I love them both. They are my best friends! But something tells me that I'm... I'm not sure but I think I like one of them... I confused. I couldn't tell them and everybody else. It's so hard to keep your fantastic secret -for some girls maybe- from your closest friends ever.

I was alone on my seats. I looked around just for knowing the situation. Suddenly, he glanced at me for a while. I smiled to him nicely.

"Dave..." I spoke in my heart "It's been a long time..." He replied my reaction also with smile and he waved his hand.

Without realizing it, my head just turned to the other side. I starred at him, another closest friend, smiled, felt very different then before. I saw him walked to me, but I... I just didn't understand what I was thinking that day.

"Tiana... Are you daydreaming? " His cold voice brought me back to reality.

"Em..." I found myself couldn't grab a sentence, or just some words. "Just that?" I talked to myself, mad. He sat next to me then.

"Well, you know me, don't you?" I heard my voice was back. He smiled. Oh, I wanted to keep that smile forever...! (:

"It's been a long time... Sorry," he answered in sorrow.

"You don't need to say something like that. We're friends," I replied him in cheerful voice. I was trying not to serious...

"Yeah... But you're alone now," he answered in brighter voice.

"Well, not really. Sometimes you come and speak to me. So does Dave," I said. I hope I could convince him that I'm not always alone.

"Oh, really? I thought he is so selfish and forgetting his old friends," his voice became higher. Ups, was I wrong? It would be better if I didn't bring Dave to our conversation.

"Sorry, I don't mean to..." I quickly response him. "No, that's......okay. That's find. It just..." His voice became lower and lower.

We both stayed in a serene for a while. "I think, you should back to your own seat. Look, the teacher already walk to here," I broke that loud silent. He started back to smile again. He shook his head, whispered something about goodbye and back to his sit.

Sitting alone again, I didn't believe what was going on. Though it's often, I still didn't believe we could talk to each other. But, there was also happiness inside my deep down heart goes out to my mind. It just like you get your desire one after a minute you saw it. I... Don't know what I feel right now...

Note:

This is my first time of writing a fiction in English. Well, I just got ideas and quickly I wrote. Please give comment, about my grammar especially. O ya, I thank you for read the part 1. So, I'll give you present. Tarrraaa....

One week after schooL...

2010-07-21T09:13:00.000-07:00

Okay, today is exactly one week we go to school in 14th July. I don't believe that we already have many home works in only one week. ONE WEEK!!! Oh, how poor are the students! :((((

Now, I'm in IB class, not Pre anymore. I got less subjects, but with harder level... -_-! Yah, life must go on. I even started to forget my very lovely and nice holidays since I was busy with the home works. In IB classes, we are focused on some subjects. That's why I wrote less subjects. But there are some subjects with higher level which will be learned deeper.

Subjects that I take are Math (in High Level/HL) which I love it very much ♥_♥ ; Biology HL - 'cause I want to be a doctor, Indonesian HL *Luv it ^^ ♥ ; Chemistry - my Pa likes it - ; English - no other choice ); and ITGS. Actually, I want to take Psychology but it has the same time with Chemistry. Subjects cress, you know. I can't appear in two place at the same time, do I? O ya, these subjects are also added with TOK, EE, CAS, REACTER, and PE. For PE, I think many people know it as sport. But for others, I have no time to explain.

Oh ya, I also have Indonesian and Biology projects right now. I had Chemistry home works, but I already finished about it. So, I think I should do the best for this and next school year. Perhaps, I could be the best scorer in my clas q;

Alright, see ya then...!

Back to Surabaya

2010-07-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

Gee... It's already July! Huh, time is going too fast. It's time to back to school again. Huft... I don't want to go to school after a month... If I could stop the time for a while... :c

Today, I went home to Surabaya again. Hiks... T_T I came back here -to Surabaya- alone, tears fell on all over my face during the plane flight. I tried to not cry but it was very hard!!! :O I remembered when my sistah and I went swimming or played badminton. I also remembered I had reunion with the junior high friends. What a lovely time I had in a month (: *I tried to smile...

Still, when I tidy up my baggage, I sobbed for a while. Then, I prayed to God, asked Him to accompany me. I still felt sad, but I could stop from the hard sobbing time. I think, I don't wanna write anything else. So, bye...

(Posted on: Wed, 21st July '10)

It's My Birthday!!!!

2010-06-22T07:00:00.001-07:00

Hey, I'm sooooooo happy...! Well, it's my birthday today :DDDDDDDD

Last night, my Ma and sister and me made a black-forest cake. But we hadn't finished decorate it with whip-cream and chocolate bar. Well, we more busy to see the World Cup. You know, since 11 June -the opening of World Cup 2010- many fathers (include my Pa) like to watch the match until 00.00 or more... So, after made the cake, we watched the match ^^

Today, we already finished decorated. The upper part of the cake is little bit messy and full, but I think it's nice though... Maybe, I'll post some photos of the cake after this. My Pa haven't uploaded them from the camera. So, I can do nothing 'bout them... Many friends also congratulated me. I'm happy with that too... >_< I just hope that I can face my days in the future better than before, and may God bless me ^___^

My ArrivaL ^^

2010-06-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

Horay!!!! Finally I arrived in Kalimantan (Sangatta, exactly). I'm so excited...!!!! :DDDDD Hm... My sistah and her friends still have exams. So I don't have a friend to play with :( O ya, I'm always counting on how many days are left before my birthday >_^ Later, I'll post my feeling if my birthday come....

Actually, I already arrived in Kalimantan yesterday, but still in Balikpapan not Sangatta. But today, I finally came to my HOME SWEET HOME c: I'm so happy... I have so many things to-do in my plan. Ma said also that I must help my sister and her friends in the exams later on. Well, little bit boring then, but that's fine. I still have long-long time to be spent.

I Hate You...

2010-05-24T01:02:00.000-07:00

I hate you...

'cause you've already taken my heart

I hate you...

You make me forget everything but not you

I hate you...

You make me suffer with myself

I hate you...

'cause you make me crazy thinking of you

I hate you...

I know that I can't reach you

I hate you...

'cause you make me so

Hmm....

2010-05-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

Well, I don't have something to write. I want to tell many things but it makes me forget them all. I guess I will just leave a short notes today. By the way, those notes (13th-14th May) were trapped in the draft posts. I have no time to edit my notes --" Just for an info, 1 month again is my birthday!

O ya... I thought I could meet him (you know lah) yesterday. Some of my friends and I used to meet each other at Friday. But, he was sick, so I couldn't meet him anyway. So sad... Yah, but that's find. I also didn't swim as last week cause I was tired from doing bio research. I just felt depressed, so I didn't want to do anything except for rest for whole evening. I think that's all. Bye... ^^V

CoS & Swim ^^

2010-05-14T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today is the second time I was swimming in the Atlas for this months. Last week, I also did the same. Well, just to refresh my mind so that I could relax for a moment. I had better time in swimming today. Not like a week ago, the pool was crowded and I must go home at 17.30 so that I could reach my target. Nah, for your information, I always make a target to do 30 times crossing the pool horizontally. The vertically side of the pool is too long for me... Yeah, I'm not professional swimmer.

There's also a good news for me and my classmates. The CoS project for May is canceled!!! Yippee... >_^(by the way, CoS is abbreviation of Community and Service). We should submit next week actually, but the teacher said that there's no time. I think so too. So, no homework for next Friday...! Wait, no homework in CoS but I must do biology research ;(

But last week, I had bad experience in CoS ); I have two projects at that time; CoS for April and Math presentation. I had already printed the CoS project but I left it at home! It's not because I wanted to but I was in a hurry. I just snatched my laptop, the room's key and my folders. When I arrived at school, I realized that I forgot to bring it. Oh no. Then the teacher asked me and few friends who did the similar things to help him during the second break. I used to eat my lunch at that time but I couldn't do it that time. Hungry......T.T Fortunately, I wasn't given a detention. Err... Actually, I had done this twice. It just because 'hurry' factor...-_- Uh, hate myself... Okay then, I hope I'll never do the same. See ya soon!!

Ascension Day - Tiring

2010-05-13T05:38:00.000-07:00

Today is soooo tiring! Well, today is holiday of the Christ's ascension. But, it made me felt more tired T_T. This morning, I had to get up at 05.30 am! I must do that so I could go to the morning fellowship on 06.30 am. I joined the fellowship until it's over around 09.00 am. I should go to the morning fellowship because the choir would sing a song. I woke up too early in the morning. Hence, I couldn't focus on the preachers... What a shame! --"

Then, the second fellowship held in 10.00 am. It's held in different church with the same branch. Imagine, I follow the ascension fellowship twice!!! After my choir sang, I was dropped home by the other members. Unfortunately, the teenager leadership would have a meeting at 12.00 o'clock... So, I just ate some food quickly and back to that church. Luckily, I could reach the church with my bike. Well, today was the third time I went to church using bike... I rode it with high speed as fast as I could.

When I arrived there, I felt that my legs were so light. I even felt like I could even jump high! I thought, it's because my legs were struggling to ride the bike with the fastest speed that I could. I should admit this. Usually, I arrived to that church in more than 15 minutes, but guess what, just now I could reach it within only 10 minutes!!! Hahaha... What a day -_<

:) I dunno

2010-05-09T04:56:00.000-07:00

Hi!!! I'm very sorry because I was gone for a MONTH! Well, I had many tests and home works. I got so many things to do and I couldn't update my blog. Beside, I also made a story. So, here I'm. And it's already 9th May!!! I'm sorry...

I have so many things to tell and to write. I don't know where I should start first. Okay, I think I'll explain why I was gone for long-long time.
You know, I'm living in Surabaya almost one year next June. And school year will over in June. The good news, of course I could relax for a month in Kalimantan. The bad news? All teachers give us many tests, homework, projects, worksheets, and more. Aside from that also, my internet connection became bad 'cause it's often used. I felt stressful but I don't know what to do. I couldn't write anything in this blog too. Fortunately, now I can ^_^

I had some good and bad marks in my tests. Not too bad actually. But I think, there are more not-too-bad marks than good marks T_T Yah, those tests are hard you know. My Pa said that I have to relax in a day. But how? I think I couldn't do that.

Do you remember my post 'Oh-oh-oh'? I discussed 'bout someone who sent me SMS right? Good, you remember. Haha... Hm... I want to discuss it more q:... but I'm shy *_* Just an info, I suspect he has already had a girlfriend...>< I thought like that 'cause some friends asked some questions like 'How is she...' and more. I think, you know lah...

Tomorrow I have two tests, BM and Music. By the way, BM is abbreviation of Business and Management lesson which I don't like it very much. It needs good logic but sometime I still don't understand anything even I was explained carefully. There are 7 UNITS for test. Also Geo project. Hmm... I'm still looking for current Geo issues. Okay then, I should work now...

Bye...

Kisah yang Sedih

2010-05-03T16:22:00.000-07:00

Aku ini seperti tokoh yang merana. Aku menganggap diriku adalah tokoh utama di sebuah kisah. Aku tak tahu judulnya, kalaupun ada buku yang menceritakan kisahku. Aku rasa tiap kisah selalu berakhir bahagia bagaimana pun juga. Meski kisah tentang cinta yang menyakitkan, tetapi akhirnya selalu membuat senyum terukir di wajah sang pembaca.

Tapi, tidak kisah untuk kisahku. Sejak awal, aku tahu aku bukan orang yang berani tentang cinta. Aku tak pernah memberitahu siapa pun masalahku tentang ini. Meski berat, aku rasa tak apa kalau kegalauanku kusimpan khusus untukku saja. Karena aku belum pernah berpengalaman tentang cinta. Ini yang pertama dan mungkin tidak berakhir bahagia.

Aku benci untuk mengakuinya. Tapi, sahabatku sepertinya sering mengambil orang-orang yang penting dan yang mewarnai diriku. Dia selalu bisa menarik perhatian orang padanya. Lalu, aku tampak seperti seseorang yang terkena imbasnya, tidak benar-benar diperhatikan. Kali ini pun begitu. Aku pikir dia sudah tahu pria yang kusukai tanpa mengatakan apa-apa. Kurasa, gerak-gerikku terlalu menunjukkanya.

Aku tahu, pria itu tidak senang dengan gadis agresif seperti sahabatku. Jadi, aku agak tenang. Belakangan, baru kusadari. Sahabatku tidak sekedar ingin menarik perhatiannya. Dia juga ingin memilikinya! Aku ragu, ia akan mendapatkannya. Pria itu tidak menyukai orang bertipeseperti sahabatku. Aku jadi ragu untuk bersikap. Terkadang berusaha mendekati pria itu juga. Tapi, sedapat mungkin tak ada orang yang menyadarinya.

"Ris, boleh kita bicara sebentar? Berdua saja," ujar pria itu suatu hari. Eh, apa...? Bicara? Aduh, ada apa ini? Jantungku langsung berdetak lebih cepat! Belum pernah aku bicara dengannya berdua saja. Lalu, terjadilah. Dia mengaku bahwa dia jatuh cinta........pada SAHABATKU!!! Bagai disambar petir di siang bolong, aku hanya bengong. Tak tahu respon apa yang harus kuberikan padanya. "Ris, kau tidak apa-apa?" tanyanya. Mungkin wajahku terlihat pucat. "Eh, oh tidak. Maksudku, aku tidak apa-apa," jawabku tergagap.

Mengapa kau mengaku padaku? Mengapa kau tidak langsung saja mengaku padanya? Berbagai pertanyaan melintas di benakku. "Ehm... Kau kan sahabatnya. Mungkin bisa memberitahunya pelan-pelan," katanya tersipu. Aduh, apa yang kulakukan? Terucapkah pertanyaan yang mengganggu di benakku? Aku rasa iya. Dengan setegar mungkin, aku berusaha menyunggingkan senyum manis. Berat sekali rasanya setelah yang kualami. "Baiklah, nanti kusampaikan.Jangan pernah menyakitinya ya," kataku. "Pasti," jawabnya mantap. Satu hal yang ingin kutanyakan, "Terakhir. Bukannya kamu pernah menyinggungnya bahwa bukan cewek seperti itu yang kau sukai. Kenapa sekarang...?" Kubiarkan pertanyaan itu menggantung. Aku belum bisa mengatakan bahwa dia menyukai sahabatku. "Justru itu. Aku juga tidak tahu. Tapi kurasa, itulah namanya cinta, menyatukan semua yang bertentangan..." Dia lalu pergi begitu saja.

Itulah namanya cinta, menyatukan semua yang bertentangan. Kata-katanya masih melekat di pikiranku. Meski mataku kini basah, aku tersenyum mengingat yang baru saja terjadi. Beberapa bulan kemudian, mereka jadian. Sahabatku terlihat bahagia, begitu juda pria itu. Lalu, sahabatku tidak seagresif biasanya. Ia sudah puas dengan cintanya yang sekarang. Aku mendoakan mereka bahagia, meski sedih. Tapi, aku sudah berbekal kata yang bijak untuk menapaki cinta yang baru. Pasti itu adalah cinta, yang menyatukan semua yang bertentangan.....

ApriL.... c:

2010-04-05T08:06:00.001-07:00

Hey, sorry for being gone for a while. Today is the first day that we must go to school (again) in April. Well, we had a week holiday after we got report card. You know, after a week holiday, I used to get up late... Hihi...^^ And today I did the same, too!!! Actually not to late, but the driver already waited me and I just got up from my bed after a while he came! Ugh... What a SHAME! I think that we had less holiday than other school. Yah... But I knew it was my fault too. I slept around 12.15 pm last night. Luckily, I wasn't late! Perhaps because the other schools were still having holidays. Thanks God, I didn't get detention >_<

O ya. I want to share a story - my own fiction story - in this blog. But, it is in Indonesian. Well, my English isn't good enough to make such a wonderful story. So, I hope you read it and post comments - if you understand... >_^

Oh... Oh... Oh...!

2010-03-22T03:05:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh-oh my gosh-oh my gosh!!! I feel somewhat like so happy yet so nervous !!! >_<

I dunno why but I think my heart-beating is getting faster every minutes!

Okay, I know why it happens. There are bad and good things. Which one first? Okay, the good one. He finally sent sms!! Well, I never wait for it but I have a hope that someday I could talk to him freely by phone or sms. I never ask his phone number 'cause I'm afraid. I also never tell anybody -even my best of the best friends- that I like him. Still, I'm not brave enough just to ask his number. But today, I was shocked, surprised, whatever it is. I'm so happy today ^^ Or, I'm being crazy? Could be. I just feel... Whoa...! Too happy to say anything.

Bad one: My grandma called me with my auntie's phone. So what? You don't know, sih...I answered like this: "Hello, auntie!" And she answered "Hi, Dyas..." Then I realized that it was my grandma's voice!!!! At that time I knew, she is visiting my aunt who born my new cousin. The bad news is she will visit me in this week!!!! No, I don't want she comes to my home stay! She will be so annoying if she comes. Well, overall this day is nice.

I was having silly experience too. Today, I must go to Erha21 clinic. I must take my Ma's medicine for her face's skin. My Pa said that I must go to Imam Bonjol street near with American ambassador. I went there with taxi. The taxi driver told me that the clinic is now near with the hotel which my Pa and I stay in. I didn't believe him, so he drove to the place. Guess what! The clinic was moved to the address that just 5 minutes from the hotel!!!! What-a??!! Never believe this thing would happen to me! Uh-oh, I paid a taxi more than it used to be! I very surprised when I knew only this far distance. That's okay, lah... At least, I could know where exactly Erha21 clinic's located.

Nice Day...

2010-03-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

Hey, bloggers... How wonderful this day was!

You know, I had wrong information about my Pa's arrival. It's Saturday - not Friday. Well, that's find I think. The important think is my Pa had arrived to Surabaya and still staying in Surabaya for few more days.

When my Pa arrived, I gave him his presents. His birthday was in February, actually. I said sorry 'cause it's been late March and I haven't sent the presents yet. Instead, he came here and took the presents for me. O ya... My Pa brought some SWEETS for me... Imagine! There are brownies, chocolate balls, whatever-its-name cakes and somethings that look like strawberry-shaped. I didn't care anything else. Thing that came to my mind was eat all of those SWEETS when I saw them at first. My Pa said that they're from my parent's friends which live in Balikpapan and wanted to give me those. What a nice person they are ^^ Here are two pictures of chocolate balls and the strawberry-shaped cakes.

O ya... Today I knew what is the Strawberry-shaped like cakes. It's nastar but they shaped as Strawberry. Very creative ya?? I'm amazed with their ideas. Also, the jams wasn't jack-fruit jams as usual but strawberry jam.

Although there are many fun things I've already had, but I'm still working on Biology project. Please, if you want to, pray for me so I could finish it on time.

Okay... I think that's all for today. Happy Sunday...!

Projects and Homework!

2010-03-19T20:55:00.000-07:00

Hey...! I think I'm always blogging frequently nowadays. I've already changed my skin. Well, I used Glitterfy.com to label the side bar. Hehe... Not to creative, huh? Just give me some comments.

By the way, I was happy with last week since I had no big problem about home works. But this week's WORSE than last week. I've got four things that I have to do with. First, English project. We must make a booklet filled with the anthology of our originally poems. Oh, it's really hard. But it will be submitted in 9th April, though. Second, Chemistry homework. I don't think this isn't to hard to make but still I feel tired too about it. Third, Biology research!!! You know, it must be submitted by e-mail (again) on this Monday, 22nd March! Well, 22nd March is the first day of Senior High UNAS and we supposed to have holiday. I hope it'll be the relaxing day. Instead, I'll be busy about research...!!! Okay lah... I'd try my best in the short time that I have. Forth, there is business challenge for grade 10. My business scores ~~never~~ not always good, you know... We have to sell our own brand within three days! Then, the teachers will find out the winner from the criteria they've made. Hiss... The busiest week I've ever have.

O ya! I haven't told you, have I? I have new -girl- cousin from my aunt in Surabaya. She was pregnant since around June or July 2009. Her name is similar with my little sister's and my name. Also, 27th March will be the day when my report card given. No!!! My heart-beating is getting faster!!! And, there's a good news!!! My Pa will come to Surabaya today!!! Yippee...! I will be so happy. Unfortunately, my Ma and sister can't come too. It's because actually my father has something to do in Surabaya and he will visits me in here. But, that's okay. So, I'll not be stressed with those home works...

I think that's all what I want to say... See ya..!

The Voice in My Heart

2010-03-18T00:52:00.000-07:00

I dunno...

Why I'm always thinking of you...

Am I falling...

Wait a minute

No,no,no...!!

I could only like him

I couldn't accept him as he is...

But, I think I couldn't breathe near him

What should I...? STOP!

Don't ask that silly question!

Just try to blend with everybody

So no one knows my feeling

Anyone?

2010-03-16T08:51:00.000-07:00

If there is a couple which both of them are struggling together to defend their relationship, I want it happens to me...

Until they're married....

TOo Long...

2010-03-16T07:42:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since last I share everything in this blog. I get busier every day. School's activity isn't too busy anymore but church time now. I have to do some jobs - not really, services I think- for Easter later. Aside from that, the teenage fellowship will have it's birthday in May, perhaps. I'm in charged to be -what ya- the person who arrange the event later. (Gak tahu Sie. Acara itu apa, hehehe...^^)

By the way, last Friday we learned about haiku (hiragana: はいく). In all English period last week, we had to learn about poem. So you can conclude that haiku also about poem.

Let me explain shortly about haiku. Haiku is a type of Japanese poem. It's usually use seasons phrase and mostly related to nature. The person who wrote this type of poem for the first time love nature so much. I forgot his name. Later I'll tell you. The rule of this poem is only has 3 lines with 5-7-5 syllables respectively. If English translator use this rule to translate the haiku or make a poem base on the rule, the poem will be called as strict-form haiku. If the translator choose shorter word or longer word, the poem will be called as free-form haiku. Then, we were divided into 4 different group according to seasons. I was in 'Autumn' group (Nad, Lyne, CheLLe). We made free-form haiku. This is our poem ~~which were repaired by Ms. Charlotte~~:

Brown, orange, yellow leaves fall

Children boots stomp the dried leaves

Basking in the autumn ambiance

These are several poem from other season groups.

Spring (PhiL&CLeve):

Sakura blooming

Cherry blossoms everywhere

It's spring in Japan

Winter (Hansen, Harisson, Ivan, MitcheLL):

Things are freezing now

It's time to wait for Santa

Got to make snowman

Summer (Christina, Vivi, Ivi, FeLicia):

Beach boys in the spa

On vacation in Bali

Summer vacation

During summer trips

Sexy chicks in bikini

Playing volley ball

All their poems are so nice, right? They chose deep-meaning words to explain what they thinking about the seasons. Aside from work in group, we're also making haiku for some seasons that we didn't make for. If we could -individually- show our poems about other seasons, Ms. Charlotte would give plus points. I think, all of my classmate showed their work. None of us didn't get plus points. O ya... Below are my poems. Originally made by me.

Spring:

Roses are blooming

We will breathe the new fresh air

Loves come as Spring does

Summer:

Sunshine is so bright

Beaches crowded with people

Sign that Summer comes

Winter:

Snow falls everywhere

Children waiting for presents

Winter is coming

Autumn (by me):

Leaves are all falling

Boots and trench coats are all used

Peace Autumn arrives

The Lovely day

2010-03-07T08:05:00.000-08:00

I must be write it since Friday. But, have no time for it. Well, cause in may be early April or last March, there will be Easter celebration. So I have to contact my friends in church about what we're going to do and the other stuff like that.

Anyway, last Friday was sooooo exciting! I was having a nice time with all of my best-friends in my school and in my hometown. I had nice and funny conversation in school. I couldn't stop myself to not laughing all the time.

Then, after school. I had nice chat time with both of my best-friends in Kalimantan. I miss them so much and they phoned me on time. We had great conversation by phone and by mail. We chat until almost night.

In the night, my family phoned me and we talked about many things until late. Sometimes, I was surprised with what they're talking about 'cause I had no idea. My little sister, she surprised me with lots of topics which I thought she would never tell them to me. But no, she said what I never guess it before. I think, she's growing up too fast. I wonder.... :)

Well, that's all for today. I want to change my skin but again, have no time for it. May be in another weekend, I'm going to change my skin. O ya... I found nice images from Photobucket. Just wanna share them here.

My design

2010-02-26T10:54:00.001-08:00

I just want to comment they all lovely. Because I'm the maker... :p

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Coolest house?

2010-02-26T05:17:00.000-08:00

Well, today is a busy day - for me of course. I must send an e-maiL to Mr. Jaren. Guess what? I sent my report to the wrong e-mail!!!

Luckily, one of my friends was online and I had chat with her for a while. She gave me the right address of Mr. Jaren's e-mail. Then I said thanks to God - and my friend - in my heart that I could still send my report before my internet became bad.

Just now, I just surfing for my father's present price (it's secret) and some girly stuff. I know that I'm in SENIOR high school. But, it doesn't stop me to like things such as Barbie or Disney Princess. Beside, I'm actually younger than Senior High student's age supposed to be. So, here it is. I've found a house with nice and sweet decoration. It's related to Barbie stuff, but I like it. Below is the image. I wish I have a house like this...

If...

2010-02-23T08:52:00.000-08:00

If I were so brave to yo, I would probably say that I...

Pengorbanan Cinta

2010-02-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

Pengorbanan Cinta

14 Februari....

Hari ini, hari Jumat. Hari ke-2 terakhir sekolah untuk minggu ini. Aku masuk ke kelas berpapan 11 A jurusan IPA. Hari ini, aku menjadi 17 tahun. Ya, 17 tahun! Tapi, aku tidak merayakannya. Orang tuaku juga tak akan mau melakukannya. Lagipula, tidak banyak yang sadar bahwa hari ini usiaku bertambah. Bagi mereka, tidak penting untuk mengetahui hari spesialku. Mereka hanya tahu, hari ini hari Valentine....

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Ding-dong, ding dong....

Bel tanda masuk berbunyi. Lumayan, istirahat pertama tadi mengistirahatkan otakku yang tegang sejak pagi. Tiba-tiba, mataku tertumbuk pada benda di atas mejaku. Sesaat aku tak mengerti. Entah kenapa, aku hanya menangkap sosok merah dengan tubuhnya yang hijau. Mataku melebar. Benda itu... Mawar! Mawar merah merona... Kusentuh tangkainya saat duduk. Asli. Ternyata mawar asli, 2 tangkai. Kurasakan wajahku memanas saat kulihat kartu di bawah 2 tangkai mawar itu. Tetapi, aku merasa ini mimpi saja.

Aku memang tak salah. Ini bukan mimpi! Buktinya, aku tertusuk duri tangkai itu. Setetes darahku tepat mengenai kartunya. Diam-diam aku berharap, bahwa ini bukan hadiah Valentine. Aku lebih suka ini sebagai hadiah ulang tahunku. Saat kubaca bagian depan kartunya, aku kecewa karena tertulis "Be My Valentine". Aku cepat-cepat menaruh mawar-mawar tersebut di kolong mejaku. Kartunya kusimpan di kantong kemeja. Untung sekali, teman sebangkuku sakit hari ini. Kalau tidak, gawat. Bisa saja aku bakal diolok-olok oleh 1 kelas, bahkan kelas sebelah.

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Ding-ding, ding-ding...

Bel istirahat berbunyi. Waktunya makan siang, pikirku. Tetapi, sebelum melangkah lebih jauh dari mejaku, aku ingat aku belum membaca isi kartu tersebut. Betapa terkejutnya aku ketika kubaca kata-kata di dalamnya. "Happy Birthday, Vien! Moga di umur kamu yang ke 17 ini, kamu bisa menjadi lebih dewasa".

Itulah kata-kata yang kubaca. Aku tidak menyangka ada yang ingat hari ini ulang tahunku. Setahuku, hanya ada dua orang yang selalu menyelamatiku. Michael, yang sudah ke negeri Paman Sam dan Lindi yang tahun ini ke negeri Sakura. Aku sangat kehilangan mereka, tapi aku tahu hari ini pasti ada e-mail yang menungguku. Hanya, aku tak menyangka akan ada kartu untukku seperti tradisi kelas. Kulihat kembali kartu itu.

PS: Maaf aku tidak ngasih kartu ini langsung ke kamu. Soalnya tidak ada yang sadar hari ini ulang tahunmu... Padahal, memberi kartu itu tradisi kelas kita. Aku tahu dari Michael. Aku tidak enak kalau tidak memberi kartu...

PPS: Cover depannya agak aneh ya? Maaf, hanya itu yang bisa kudapat di bulan Februari... Mau ketemuan sepulang sekolah?

Aku tersenyum. Teman Michael ya... Hm, kalau tidak salah memang ada beberapa dari teman Michael itu yang akrab denganku tapi tidak seperti Michael, Lindi dan aku. Siapa ya? Ada dua orang yang kuingat. Dino dan Leon. Michael tahu aku suka Leon, tapi tidak mungkin Michael memberi tahu mereka berdua tentang perasaan dan ulang tahunku. Terus, ini siapa? Sudahlah, nanti sepulang sekolah aku menemui dia saja. Aku berharap...

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Teng-teng-teng-teng-teng-teng...

Bel berbunyi enam kali. Waktu memang cepat sekali. Sekarang sudah waktu pulang sekolah. Aku agak gemetar. Soalnya, aku tidak tahu siapa yang akan kutemui sepulang sekolah. Aku cemas memikirkan bahaya apa yang kira-kira mengintai. Tapi, aku juga penasaran. Siapa teman Michael yang tahu soal ulang tahunku. Hm... Aku akan terlambat pulang, tapi tidak apa-apa. Toh hari ini aku 17 tahun.

Sekolah mulai agak sepi. Aku kembali ke kelas dan menunggu. Belum pernah aku merasa seberani ini. Kalau pun ada orang yang mau bertemu denganku sepulang sekolah, setidaknya aku bersama Lindi di kelas. Tapi aku sendiri. Tiba-tiba, kulihat sosok laki-laki yang berjalan. Kalau diperhatikan, ya seperti Leon. Astaga Leon-kah yang mengirimnya? Tidak mungkin, cowok sekeren dia tidak mungkin menulis kartu itu. Kulihat sekelilingku. Memang masih ada beberapa anak yang nongkrong di lapangan sekolah. Tapi, tidak banyak. Lalu, aku kembali duduk dan menunggu. Brakk... Pintu kelasku terbuka. Dia...!

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Tahun-tahun sudah berlalu. Aku sudah hampir mencapai tingkat skripsi. Aku kini di fakultas MIPA, jurusan favoritku dari dulu. Aku ingat janjiku pada orang tuaku dan pada seseorang. Nanti kalau sudah skripsi, aku sudah boleh menentukan pilihan untuk pasangan hidupku. Baru 4 tahun dan aku sudah hampir memulai skripsiku. Pada saat itulah, aku akan memilih Leon.

Ya 4 tahun yang lalu, dia mengirimkan ucapan ulang tahun saat aku berusia 17 tahun. Pulang sekolah itu, ternyata dia mengaku suka padaku. Awalnya, aku tak tahu harus menjawab apa. Aku tahu pipiku memanas, tapi akhirnya kujawab dengan jujur. Tapi, aku juga bilang padanya bahwa aku boleh dan ingin berpacaran setelah aku bisa menyelesaikan beberapa semester dan memulai skripsi. Kupikir dia akan kecewa dan menyukai orang lain. Senangnya saat dia bilang mau menungguku. Karena dia juga berpikir kita terlalu muda saat itu. Jadi, aku gembira sekali tentang hal ini. Lusa nanti, aku akan menyusun skripsi. Sebaiknya, kuberitahukan saja kabar ini pada orang tuaku dan pada Leon.

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"Apa? Mama sakit?" ujarku di telepon. Tanpa sadar, aku berteriak sehingga orang-orang sekitar memandangku. "Dari seminggu yang lalu? Mengapa kau tidak segera telepon??" kupelankan suaraku. Aku menghembuskan napas perlahan sambil mendengar penjelasan adikku. Aku baru saja menelpon Leon tentang hal ini dan sedang menelpon Papa-Mama di rumah tentang hal ini. Ternyata adikku yang mengangkatnya dan mengatakan kabar yang mengejutkan ini. Kalau seperti ini, aku pasti menunda skripsiku dan segera pulang ke kampung halaman.

Setelah adikku selesai, Papa segera mengambil alih teleponnya. Ia bilang ia sudah memesan tiket. Aku diharapkan segera datang 2 hari lagi. Cepat-cepat kusela keterangan Papa bahwa aku mau skripsi. Tetapi katanya, "Bawa saja bahan-bahannya dan kerjakan di sini." Papa tidak memikirkan susahnya menyiapkan bahan secepat kilat untuk dibawa ke sana! Selesai telpon dengan keluarga, kutekan tombol ponselku. "Halo, Vien…" tersambung! Kuberi tahu tentang apa yang baru saja kudengar dan keputusan yang baru saja diambil. Entah mungkin mendengar suara cemas atau gemetar, ia menghiburku dan bilang supaya aku harus kuat. Leon tahu aku panik ya, kataku dalam hati. Seulas senyum tersungging di bibirku, tapi sejenak kemudian aku berkerut. Katanya, dia diharuskan orang tuanya ke Prancis untuk pendidikannya. Itu akan memakan waktu lama. Dia bilang dia akan sering pulang ke Indonesia, tapi aku berkata aku yakin padanya dan banyak hal yang harus kuselesaikan. Ponsel kututup, aku segera bersiap untuk keberangkatan 2 hari lagi.

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Kulirik jam tanganku. Uh jam setengah 11 malam. Kusimpan draft skripsiku dan kumatikan laptopku. Aku mengerjakan skripsi sambil menjagai Mama di rumah sakit. Sudah beberapa hari Mama terlihat lemas. Adik yang SMA tidak bisa menemani. Jadi, aku-lah yang disuruh. Aku perlahan menuju ke tempat tidurku. Yah, tidak bisa dibilang tempat tidur karena itu hanya matras yang tergeletak di lantai.

Tak sengaja, aku menyenggol mapku. Isinya berjatuhan. Terpaksa aku bangkit lagi dan membereskan semuanya satu per satu. Tiba-tiba, kulihat kertas pemberian Leon. Ini waktu aku berulang tahun ynag ke-19. Isinya adalah puisi berjudul ‘Cinta’ karangannya. Setelah semua beres, aku membaca puisinya perlahan-lahan sambil tersenyum.

Cinta…
Cinta itu membingungkan…

Cinta itu penuh…
Karena cinta itu indah…

Penuh pengorbanan…
Tapi, jatuh cinta pasti sakit

Karena cinta membahagiakan...
Cinta menyenangkan…

Kalau kita mengorbankannya…
Tapi tidak untuk semua orang…

Demi kebahagiaan semuanya…

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Sudah berhari-hari aku di rumah sakit. Untungnya, dokter bilang kalau Mama sudah boleh pulang minggu depan. Tetapi, kita harus menuruti apa kata Mama. Kalau tidak Mama bisa kambuh lagi sakitnya. Agak aneh memang, tapi kumaklumi saja. Tak pernah terpikirkan olehku bahwa itu akan mengecewakanku selamanya.

"Ma, selama Mama sakit aku sudah menyusun skripsi lho…" kataku saat berbenah barang-barang Mama. "Iya. Mama dengar samar-samar dari Papa," jawab Mama santai. "Lalu, kamu mau menagih janji itu ya?" Mama tersenyum simpul. "Yah, tidak juga. Aku hanya mau melapor prestasiku," jawabku. Meski masih lemas, Mama bisa menggodaku. Mama tahu tentang Leon itu dan aku cerita tentang semua yang terjadi akhir-akhir ini. Mama hanya terdiam tetapi sepertinya kurang senang.

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"Vien, emang kamu boleh berpacaran setelah skripsi. Setahu Papa, kamu cuma pingin sama Leon kan?" Tanya Papa suatu malam. Aku mengangguk. Papa mengatakan keinginan Mama. Aku… Harus dengan seseorang dari yang bersuku sama? "Pa, itu diskriminatif banget. Papa kan tahu Leon itu gimana…" jawabku kesal. Setahuku, keluargaku adalah keluarga yang bebas dari tradisi itu. Alasannya, karena aku anak sulung lebih bisa diharapkan untuk taat. Lalu, kalau nanti Leon lama di Prancis, Mama bisa khawatir akan meninggalkanku cepat. Aku bangkit dari sofa dan menuju ke kamar. Tuntutan mereka terlalu tinggi! Aku menyelesaikan kuliah cepat bukan apa-apa, Papa-Mama bilang aku harus cepat agar ada biaya buat adik. Itupun aku sudah dapat beasiswa.

Aku e-mail Leon tentang ini karena dia sedang online. Ternyata, dia juga diharuskan memilih gadis yang akan mndukung karirnya. Papa Leon kurang setuju dengannya tentang aku. Aku bingung, apa semua orang tua janjian untuk memisahkan anaknya. Mama yang mendengar aku menolak keinginannya langsung pingsan. Semula aku tak peduli, tapi mendengar suara panic adikku membuatku pergi ke dekatnya. Aku tahu Mama shock. Sepertinya berat anaknya yang penurut bisa berubah seperti ini.

Mama masuk ICU. Aku marah tapi juga takut. Mama seperti memanfaatkan sakitnya. Leon pun kini juga bingung. Apakah kita bisa bersama? Adikku datang mebuyarkanku. Dia memohon agar aku menuruti Mama. Siapa tahu saja itu untuk terakhir kali. Aku menjawab aku masih skripsi dan tidak ingin memikirkannya. Adikku membujuk lagi dan kujawab akan kupertimbangkan. Untuk ketiga kalinya adikku memohon, kali ini dengan suara bergetar. Mataku menghangat, lalu kujawab ya. Adikku tersenyum dan memelukku. Tetapi belum lama kulepas badanku dari pelukannya dengan kasar. Aku harus sendiri!

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"Leon, aku…" jawabku di telepon. Aku cerita semuanya dan terisak. Aku bingung. Kalau sudah begini perempuan hanya bisa bersedih. Aku tahu Leon dan aku tak punya pilihan. Kami harus merelakan semua keinginan yang ada. "Tidak apa. Kita masih bisa jadi sahabat," ujarnya perlahan. Sesaat kami terdiam. Hatiku sakit sekali, mengingat semuanya terasa begitu cepat. "Kamu masih dengar…?" tanyanya menghilangkan kesunyian. "Iya. Kamu gak sedih?" jawabku cepat, takut kalau nanti menangis lebih keras. "Ingat puisi karanganku untukmu? Kurasa itu bisa membantu," katanya. Aku tertawa masam. Iya, memang dia menulis kalau cinta membahagiakan kalau kita korbankan. "Tapi seharusnya membahagiakan dan…" jawabku kesal. "Menyakitkan untuk kita memang. Tapi itu membahagiakan lebih banyak orang," selanya cepat. Ya, dia benar. Itulah maksud puisinya. Maksud yang benar-benar dalam.

Aku tahu, pilihanku benar. Aku tahu, aku harus merelakan Leon. Aku sadar, setidaknya ini bukti cintaku pada Mama dan Papa. Ini juga rasa hormat pada orang tua dan keluarga. Meskipun itu butuh usaha. Karena itu mengambuil bagian terdalam di idupku, yaitu cinta………

Too fast

2010-01-30T17:56:00.000-08:00

This ~~lovely~~ month will be over by the end of this day. No....! I can't believe it!!! It seems that time is running faster and faster than before, always surprised me in the end of the month. But in this month, I think there were a lots of things and emotion. There were sadness when my family back to Kalimantan, relaxing time before I back to school for this year, happiness when I saw my friends again, curiosity with someone, and many more. I can't write down all of those things in here, can be more than one page. Perhaps the images on the right could help me explain them.

Anyway, February is known as romantic month. Well, it because there is a day to celebrate love called as Valentine Day, 14th February. Many legends try to explain the Valentine Day history. But in my opinion the most correct story is about a man called as Valentino who loves everybody even he was putted in jail. He was one of Christian or Catholic *perhaps* that caught by NAZI. He tried to tell his girlfriend that she didn't need to worried about him and comforted people that were in jail. His birth date is 14th February. Hence, the day called as Valentine to remember what he's done.

Well, I already have a story -about love- that is really my imagination story. I want to write it, but it will be very long. So, may be I will write it next time hopefully.

See you on February :)

Hard Day

2010-01-30T15:46:00.000-08:00

Friday this week was my hardest day ever. Since PC time until ~~almost the end of the day~~ before Math class, I must be ready to stand in front. Along that day, I felt if my heart would going to break. Especially in Biology class. Evelyne and I was trying hard to present our experiment with well. When Mr. Jaren said "You're good, you did a good preparation", I couldn't believe my ears. Was that sentence really said by him??? I don't really sure. But even Evelyne felt like we couldn't brief during our presentation.

The end of school time was Math time. Ms. Widi said that we would having a game after 2nd break. Well, actually the game cheer me up. But before the game started, I got something which was slightly disappointing me. But everything okay, though. I won the game! (because my partner was Harrison. He is smart guy) At least I could ignore Math test score for once :) I will have plus point in Math test later on. But I think I still need to get hig score in Math, cause I don't know how high the plus point is...

Okay than, see you next.....

Time

He SmiLes :D

2010-01-21T21:07:00.000-08:00

Ill est 'Looked at Me' this morning!!! With his charming smiLe, he was seeing me called my mom in schooL before the time to enter the schooL .Before this day, he Like to smiLe but I don't know to whom his smiLe is. But today, I'm REALLY-REALLY sure that it was for me onLy. What a beautiful day ^_^
Well, actually there were many people passed through me. He's the one of my friends who passed me for more than twice. When I realized that, I was talking about serious topic. But then, I was surprised with what my mother told me. Then, you know, girls sometime did over-acting. I was -not exactly- shocked with my mom's story. The thing is, I act as I was adult woman (this part is hard to explain, though) and my voice was -only little bit- louder than before. I already knew that his eyes' direction was Looking me. When I act differently -Like I described before- I thought he tried hard to not Laugh and smiLe.
Before he got into the cLass (maybe 10-15 cm from door) I shook my head to the right, saw him exactly on his eyes, and then he smiLes BIG! Then I smiLed him to, but not for Long. Well, I feeL very excited.... Very-very-very-very-very-very happy >_<>

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So long! May you guys have a nice moment in evrey time!!!

Oh my!

2010-01-18T01:30:00.001-08:00

It's January! Already January 18th now! Oh, even 2010 moving so fast. I'm tired with aLL of my works, esspeciaLLy I pLayed basketball today. If I could sLow down the time ('.'!)
This month, I feeL so far from. . . You know.
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okay than, that's aLL 4 2day. . . Bye.!

Happy me(aL)! -McD-

2009-12-11T00:34:00.000-08:00

Hehehe... This image is showing happy girl. The comment is LoveLy Day... She had a good day then...

Same with me!!! These last days I felt very happy -with couriousity- because he smile to me for many times. Did he really mean that for me or not???? ^____^

A Girl's Captured Memories

10 days before Christmas ^^

CLEAR - Sampo Anti KETOMBE!

*Dunno the title yet*

Why....Kenapa?

Real deal - doctor's apprentice

DECEMBER cx

Is it true. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .?

Adorable Life-Parallel Cartoons

PAUSE

(Mock) Exams COMINGGG!!!

Braided hair ^O^

Eh?!

q:

Sweet-test November?

Surabaya :)

The City: The Rose, The Buildings, and The Foods :)

Univesities coming...! Scary

Long time no see in real X)

With Ma ^_____^

I: (: c: qx o:

Mmmh....

Rasa

Happy B'day Mom!!

Physics-physics Yey (¬_¬!)

Heartbroken (again?)

Happy Independence Day, INDONESIA!

End of month

Coolest Stuffs

After Holiday

Test-Task-Work(?)

Kartini Day

Funny cake

Happy Anniversarry & B'day Dad!!

Romance :P

2011

Merry Christmast!!!

REPORT CARD - School Stops, Holiday Yey!

Indonesian food with chopstick??

formspring.me

Barbie-Fashionista :D

My CareLess Me ):

Unclear

Middle of September

Huh, huft, hmf...

In Between (part 1)

One week after schooL...

Back to Surabaya

It's My Birthday!!!!

My ArrivaL ^^

I Hate You...

Hmm....

CoS & Swim ^^

Ascension Day - Tiring

:) I dunno

Kisah yang Sedih

ApriL.... c:

Oh... Oh... Oh...!

Nice Day...

Projects and Homework!

The Voice in My Heart

Anyone?

TOo Long...

The Lovely day

My design

→ View all works

→ Play More Dress Up Games

Coolest house?

If...

Pengorbanan Cinta

Too fast

Hard Day

He SmiLes :D

Oh my!

Happy me(aL)! -McD-

Dunno the title yet